What would be my miracle..

On December 30th (I think) I found out I was pregnant at work. I remember taking the test at work because I was stressed out and I just wanted to see for sure that I wasn’t pregnant. Two lines showed up and I was shocked. I was working in the cosmetics department that day and I started pacing back and forth. I had no idea what to do. The first thing I did when I got home, was post on rebelmb , that I was pregnant…. I told my boyfriend and for our first New Years, we stayed in watching movies and drinking sparkling apple juice.

I went to the doctors on the 10th I believe and he tested my HCG levels. Even though my LMP was Nov 14th/07, I was showing 6 weeks pregnant. Early the next week, I had cramping and spotting so I went to the hospital. I was there for awhile, and they did an exam only to find I had a UTI. I was prescribed antibiotics and sent home. 2 or 3 days later, I was back in the hospital. I had another exam and they could see some bleeding. I then had an ultrasound, baby was showing up 5 weeks with no heart beat…

The past two weeks, I’ve been having bleeding and cramping off and on. I went to the hospital again on the 28th at 7 pm, and I didn’t leave until 2 in the morning. I didn’t even have an exam this time, the doctor tried doing an ultrasound and wasn’t able to get a clear picture. They tested my HCG levels and he said it was all normal. So yesterday I had another ultrasound, and I couldn’t hear a heart beat but I wasn’t able to see the picture or get any pictures. Now I’m just waiting on my doctor to call.

Although Gordy and I aren’t ready for this baby at all, we could make it. I was re-prioritizing my life, and making sure that things I did would work for my baby.

If I do lose this baby, it will be hard to accept it and move on. But I will, and from now on I’m making better healthy eating choices, taking a prenatal every day, and exercising more so that when I do have children and if another surprise bean happens, my body will be healthy enough to have a healthy pregnancy and maybe lower my chance of miscarriage.