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February 2, 2008
Well, now more than ever I’m so glad I made this blog. I’m going to need it when I need to vent now.
I went to the hospital last night around 630 because I was bleeding really heavily and I’ve never had contractions but I would say that my cramps were as bad as contractions. Ugh! so painful! I took two tylenol was not helping..laying down wasn’t helping anymore, and I tried going in the bath.. it was still painful. I waited until about 8 to go into room. I was seen by a nurse and she just asked me a lot of questions because I said when I went in that I had been in here almost 5 times with no help really. So I was happy that I had a good nurse for once, who took the time to ask me A LOT of questions. Finally the doctor came in, and said my vitals were all healthy, he felt my stomach to see where it was hurting.
Warning: TMI coming up now!
After awhile, I had a pelvic exam and they told me that my cervix was completly open. There was a bit of tissue hanging on that he removed. He said that was probably causing me the cramps. Since he did that, I’ve been having cramps but there cramps I can manage. He gave me some information on pregnancy loss incase I need it.
I also found out that my blood is RH negative. It was funny because Gordy and I were talking about this when I just found out I was pregnant. I was telling him what it can do, and then turns out I have that blood type. So I got the shot and it didn’t even hurt! Thank God!
I cried a little bit last night, and was upset this morning. I know we weren’t ready for a baby, but I started to want the baby after awhile. It was like something to change my life and re-prioritze. I don’t think I’ll think I’m ready for a baby. But I’m going to graduate, get a full time job, and then if I have children I’ll feel more ready. I hope I’ll be married before children that way whoever I am with, we’ll have a chance to develop a full relationship. But if not, that’s fine.. I just want my education, a full time job, and a more stable relationship than right now!
I realized I would have been 11 weeks pregnant this week if the baby had not stopped growing at 5 weeks…. Kind of sad.. 
One week away from the first trimester being over… Well I just hope my next pregnancy goes better than this one did!
Just like I said at Rebel, I am so sorry for your loss. Such a relief you finally got a decent nurse at the ER though. When you are more aware of what is going on it really helps. When you are ready to be pregnant, now that you know about your blood type, which like I said I have too, you can take all the right steps to have a happy healthy pregnancy and baby. I wish you much luck with all the bad cramps, when my cousin had her miscarriage she said it was so bad but everything will go back to normal, I am here for ya when you need someone to talk to.
I didn’t forget about your vday card either, just gotta find a good one