Giving Up

I feel like my relationship with Gordy is pretty much over.  I’m so tired of him having his little second family with another girl from his old work. If I met some guy from work, and started hanging out with his family he would be soo mad! But he just says it’s no different than if it was a guys family. See, he was a whore before me and I haven’t completly gotten over that fact. And I keep having all these feelings that he’s not being truthful. I don’t know if I’m being paranoid, or if it is a gut feeling because of how secretive and shady he’ll act sometimes. I basically said that I would move into this place because I am paying it all anyhow besides 325, and he can just get his own place! but I don’t know.. Ugh!

And school, since I had the miscarriage, I’ve barely been doing anything. It’s like I have no motivation to do it now. I complained to Gordy and he said do it for yourself if anything …. and yes… I said I would do that..But the math is so hard and I hate poetry. I’m just giving up it seems… I have to switch from my course in math to the easy stupid math because I can’t do math through correspondence.. it’s to hard.. So I’ll have to take upgrading math classes in college. I hate poetry because these poems make no sense! It’s stupid! I don’t need to learn about poem. Ugh! I’m having a bad day in general.

I don’t have a job still because the nanny thing was a scam, I have to give job references to the future landlord tomorrow and I have none besides Gordy’s.. UGHH!!!!

Finally – A Home!

Well, bad news, and then good news!

Gordy and I went to look at a basement suite last night and it was awesome! It wasn’t that huge, but the suite allows pets, and is big enough for our stuff to actually fit. It definitely helped to see furniture in the suite that was similar to ours so we had an idea.

We’re meeting with landlord on Monday to meet his wife, give him job references, and damage deposit and pet deposit! Yay! I’m so excited!

Work

Okay I returned a bunch of stuff that I bought from work to get a gift card. Now the gift cards that I received totalled about 650$. I didn’t return that much stuff. But I received a couple gift cards from  a women (supervisor) at work about a week or two ago. She left end of last week. Now two days ago, I went and bought myself a Nintendo DS and a PS3 for my boyfriend.

This morning at work, the girl next to me left to do some tidying of the store. She was gone for like 20 minutes. I had nobody to talk to, and no customers. I kept walking back and forth. Now I saw a gift card on the floor, picked it up and was closest to her till. I realized she was still signed on, so I looked to see how much was on the gift card. 80$. Now instead of putting it on the cash register, and having someone take it or something. I kept it so I could give it to my supervisor later on. Well they caught all of this on camera, now it didn’t look good.

I saw the girl coming  back, and was like finally..someone to talk to … but she was with the manager, and another supervisor. So I was like err okay.. whatever… then all of a sudden.. this other women comes up to my till and is like my name is … … … I’m with the …. fraud … and showed me her badge, hand me the gift card you just loaded with money. I was like excuse me!? I didn’t load any giftcard. I freaked out, so I hesitated. Then I gave her the giftcard that I found and was going to be giving my supervisor anyhow.

So basically, the gift cards that I spent were fraudulently purchased.  The person would scan the gift card for 400$, and then push the tender as cash so the cash register thinks it’s getting that money but there is no money at the end of the day.  I did about 250$ in returns of baby stuff (it wasn’t on sale anymore) without my receipt, so they are convinced that I also stole those and then returned them for money. I was terminated, and I have a court hearing in March. This is just wonderful!

I called Gordy right away when I got home, and started crying. So he came over like within 10 minutes and I told him all that happened. He has a huge criminal record himself and was trying to calm me down. I’m calling his lawyer in the morning to talk to him and see what I can do.  But my life is pretty much over now, unless I get proven innocent somehow.

Freakin Nintendo DS!

So, I realized that I had 486$ on my credit card..and I decided that we could just use that for groceries and everything. So I had 3 gift cards, 190$, 200$, and then something else… Just stuff that I returned… Well.. I decided to get myself a Nintendo DS and two games, zelda and fashion designer. Then, I got Gordy playstation 3… He freaked and flipped out. I also got these really pretty flowers from Gordy. Ahh! I blushed soo hard lol, he brought them to me at 1:20 and I was off at 1:30… came in my line up, and I didn’t notice him because it was extremly extremly busy. He put them on the till and I looked at them looked at him and went “AWWW!” and went so red lol. The customers in the line up were all laughing and saying how sweet!

A movie, picking the nintendo DS without me looking, and flowers…yeah super nice… It wasn’t even my money on the gift cards, soo who cares that I spent like 600$ lol.

Serenity Rose

It’s 2008 and I keep making resolution after resolution the past few years and never keeping them. Most of them were to lose 10 or 15 lbs or something superficial like that. For once, my resolutions weren’t made. I have goals in mind. I’ve always wanted to create my own website, I don’t really have knowledge of html or css or any of those codes… so free word press blog will work for me! My goal is to post here on a daily basis. I have more posts to make to get out, and some pages to add. But here’s to 2008 with a new personal blog!